Ok So its been awhile since I even posted but I just wanted to let everyone know how my wedding went. It was so beautiful...there were some knicks at first like my husbands parents didnt come to the wedding because they were cooking for the reception so they missed the ceremony. My 3 yr old nephew who was my ringbearer ran down the aisle busted through the flower girls, fell, got back up and ran back up the aisle. That was my comedic moment. My dad started me out and walked me to my twin boys and when I got to them I just started crying and when I looked up and saw my husbands face he had tears streaming down his face. It was so emotional but so touching and I loved every single minute of it....enjoy the pics!

WOW....i got so many emotions going through me ranging from excitement, nervousness, anxiousness, the list goes on and on...I can't wait to be MRS.GRAY officially......all the details are coming together everyone seems to be on the right page now it took awhile but we got it going......I think I need to get my dress altered though because at first it fit perfect no alterations needed but now thru all the stress I have lost some weight so now I need to try it on and make sure the weight loss didnt impact my dress too much

The setback is my coordinator will be getting fired...she has done absolutely nothing and has not contacted me in no way whatsoever.....I think my decorator is going to fill her shoes since she has been in contact with me more than anything. I'm a little disappointed by that but oh well....my life goes on and so does this wedding FULL STEAM AHEAD!!!!!

I am trying to scramble with having my father walk me down the aisle now I know this is tradition but I have been defying tradition all the way . My twin eleven year old boys have been there thru the relationship with my fiance and I who is not their father. So I felt it only right to have them give me away. MY biological father hasnt really been in my life like that.....but the word spreading thru the family grapevine is he wants to walk me down and since he will be helping to pay for some of the catering bill then I suppose I may have to oblige him to do so. DECISIONS DECISIONS!!!!

Ok so I havent blogged in awhile but so much has happened. I feel so overwhelmed right now and I dont think I'm supposed to feel this way especially when I have a wedding planner. I think she went MIA on me though because I havent talked to her in two weeks. I would think she would be on me about getting stuff done but she really has been lukewarm. I am being told to fire her and find someone else but come on now. I am down to the wire of everything I really dont have time to search for another one. My decorator of my ceremony has been in contact with me more than my own planner which I think is crazy cause she is just decorating the location. SO far things are falling into place very well. The caterer we found to replace the one that quit was pretty reasonable so we didnt bust our budget trying to get her and everything is included linens,china, silverware,etc so that was an even bigger plus. I have alot of shopping to do over the next few weekends. Oh what do you think about having two bachlorette parties? I am having one the night before but it wont be nothing big because my sisters and my out of town bridesmaids will be attending that one, but I'd also like to do one for the friends I have that are here now. Is that doing too much?

I feel the closer my wedding day gets the more stuff happens and my emotions are all out of wack. Yesterday my caterer calls to tell me she QUIT!!!!...not my wedding but the venue where the reception is being held she decided to no longer work for them and since we have to use their caterers I am now without one! I immediately contacted the reception venue to find out if they have a backup caterer or another one that I may be able to use and thank goodness they do but I found out this is one is much higher than the previous one we had and its way too late to change venues to keep my original caterer. *SIGH* Now we have to rework our budget which was really tight to see if we can even afford this new caterer. I am praying the food is worth it. I pray that nothing else major goes wrong.

Ok I am really freaking out here....my lovely sister decided to purchase our invitations for us as a gift. That helped out greatly with one of our expenses and I was so happy when she offered. I scoured the internet until I found one I absolutely loved and I let her know this is the one I wanted.

(Invitation photo by HandyKaneWeddings.com)

She quickly jumped on the task of ordering them and making sure all the wording was correct. Now here it is 68 days until my wedding and we have no proof, nothing. I would go a different route but the only thing is she has paid for them already . I didnt want to burst into tears(although that was my very first reaction to do that) over the phone when she told me that she's been contacting the company and asking for her final proof and alll she is being told is that the design team will contact her and so far they havent . I remained calm and tried hard not to panic.....

I dont remember what timing is customary to send out invites.Most of the people we know already know about the ceremony and the location but its the fact of actually receiving a paper invite that solidifies their role as a guest not just word of mouth.

I am praying this all changes before the end of this month

STAY TUNED!

I just want the people close to me to stop stressing me out

you are not supposed to do that.....SERIOUSLY!!!!I am starting to think this is the year for bridesmaids from hell they should have a show on that.....

Here it is....I have 7 bridesmaids total....2 of them are just putting me thru it with getting their dresses....I gave deadlines even offered to purchase the dress myself. I have an indecisive one that may be in it but dont know until July....HELLOOOOO my wedding is in the beginning of August so I been already on the replacement mode......is that wrong? I'd think not this show will go on. I have other stuff to worry about than these so called friends of mine and their issues....

Then there is my sister. I asked to use my 3 yr old nephew as a ringbearer and she said ok but then I asked to use my other two nephews as Ushers and she all but went off on me bringing up a failed engagement I had to an ex before some 4 plus plus years ago where she had bought a dress for the wedding that never happened for a $100 and couldnt get her money back all she got was a store credit....and I was like WOW what does this have to do with using your kids whose TUX's I offered to get?.....its to the point where now I'm just going to use my two brothers sons and not use none of her children that way she wont feel like she has to spend any money and leave it at that. I dont need the stress!

 Hello,

I am officially in wedding planning mode..only 2 more months to go...I changed my cake again..I wish I wasnt such an indecisive bride and could just find something and stick to it but I fell in love unexpectedly with this cake (from a wedding that a friend of mine attended) because it has my color of Fuschia pink,but I still want to do cupcakes...so may just do the top piece and get cupcakes around it..what do you think?

I found out one of my bridesmaids is now pregnant and will be about 4months come wedding day so the dress I choose for the girls below may not work for her anymore....even though it doesnt squeeze the stomach..should I search for a maternity dress or leave that up to her?

Photo credit: JCPenney

Im getting really excited that I have my entire ensemble the only thing left to do really is start finalizing all the little details like whose riding in the limo and ceremony music. I noticed a blog on here previously about music and I am the same way I refuse to walk on here comes the bride.....I thought about Beyonce's version of Ave Maria but not really sure about it now...then I didnt even think of the recessional music....I know we will have two live singers and the fiance is planning a surprise for me but I'm not quite sure what...I just know he gets to talking to people about his friend that can sing very very well and I get dismissed from the room I want to ask him is he singing me down the aisle or something or is he writing a song for me?????

We also decided to write our own vows and you would think because I am an author this would be easy right? WRONG! I been pondering over what to say and my brain is so jumbled with words I could tell a love story but to get so personal is hard to do without tearing up....*sigh*

So here we are rounding the corner of 2 months and 3 weeks before the big day. I finally got the FH to go and get fitted for his tux by making the appt for him. My coordinator and I keep bumping heads on decor for the reception because she keeps suggesting high end stuff while I want budget end stuff. She suggested chair covers but I just absolutely HATE those things and want chair ties since the reception venue chairs are already black and my colors are Fushia, and Black. That will save me a ton of money. Then I caught this idea for Lanterns.

The venue has several white ones already hanging from their ceiling so her and I came to an agreement on adding pink and black ones to fill up the space and give it a more party like atmosphere.

I found 12 for only $13.99a dozen @ orientaltrading.com again saving me money.

Now on to table linens. I was thinking of doing every other table black and pink and since they provide white linens was even going to throw some white tables in there. Here are my ideas for centerpieces only imagine black and pink as the colors

I want to do a candy buffet

as well but would like to have some personalized bags to put it in and not sure where I can find that at any suggestions?

and just one more thing with this type of dress do you think a chapel length veil would be too much? (My dress is the first picture)

Ok so here I am trying to hurry myself along and making sure I have my complete ensemble for the big day (August 8th) when I realize my hubby to be hasn't even stepped foot in the tuxedo shop. OH NO>.......the last I recalled the lady at the tux place told me they need to be paid and measured by June 20th so we have a little over a month and a half for that to happen. I have been on him to get in there and make a selection but he just been dragging his feet. WHAT DO I DO? I can't pick out the tux's for him but I would like us to cross that off the list and move on to something else. I also dont want to sound like a mother telling her son what to do but its like come on now honey we got less than 3 months now....we need to keep the ball rolling on this stuff....! This stuff gets so frustrating....I had my dress paid,picked and purchased last year......

Havent posted in awhile but some time ago I had mentioned losing my ceremony location which was undoubtedly beautiful and fit perfect for my Hollywood theme....but after scouring the city I think I have found something.

Its the rooftop of a hotel and it overlooks the lake which is just beautiful...and I could stay at the hotel not having to worry about getting up and forgetting anything....I am also going to see about changing the reception venue from where I have it now which is a Jazz club to the hotels downstairs ballroom if its in my budget...it would be so convenient for my out of town guests not to have to travel from place to place....so I meet with the event manager on Friday....wish me luck!

So many changes and only 3 months left wow....